Monday, May 5, 2008
Uncertainty (Poem)
Uncertainty
I never asked for this
Never wanted this to happen either
Why did it have to go this way?
Even the messages I sent to you were
Ignored
Left on the floor
You
Never bothered to pick it up
And read what I have just written
Where have we gone wrong?
When the very first time
You confessed that you like me?
When the very first time
You asked me out?
When the very first time
You held my hand?
Or is it
The very first time
I said ‘Yes’?
I do not know
I cannot see
Maybe I don’t even wish to see
All the pain and struggles that are inside me
The pain
It’s hurting inside
The pain
It’s tearing me apart
The pain
It never seems to subside
The struggles
To break free and fly
The struggles
To save back my pride
The struggle
Not to lie down and die
Did you ever understand me?
Maybe make an effort to?
OR was it too much for your ego to take
So you just threw my away “For my own good”
What are the truths?
What are the lies?
How can I not tell?
When I don’t see me in your eyes
Tell me what to believe
Tell me what to not
Tell me how to cope
When you are not here to hold on to
I want to see your face
I want to hear your voice
I want to just believe
That you are right here beside me
I don’t want to see
I don’t want to hear
I don’t want to believe
That you have already left me
But it’s all a dream
It’s never gonna come true
All the lies I have told myself
Are finally breaking through
My dreams were shattered
By your own two hands
As you threw away the pieces in disgust
You never thought to look back
What am I to you?
Nothing more than just a thing?
A thing you can play around with
Then throw away?
Was it my fault?
Or was it yours?
I guess we may never know
Since all has come to naught…
Well, haven’t posted for a while and the first thing you see is this, lol, ah well, better than nothing. Don’t try and pry it out of me what it is about, cuz I am completely not telling.
Other than that, nothing much has happened. Below are just some pictures that I have found to represent my feelings on how I feel now. It’s all because of an anime/manga that made me feel this way, so yup.
TAKEN OFF BY THE REQUEST OF DARYL ONII CHAN SINCE HE SAID THAT HE HAS PROVEN THIS POINT > ALL I WANT IS ONE GUY TO PROVE TO ME THAT THEY ARE NOT ALL THE SAME.
7:00 AM
