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After all that thinking and all that has come and passed, I found that being angry and pissed doesn’t matter anymore. I wasn’t looking at what was really important to me, and that is the friends that are with me. And here I am finally to report! XDD

Kuroii
Darling! I really feel that after talking to you that night, I knew much more about you that I would ever know. And like Gumok says, you are so young(though still older that me =X) but you are really mature for your age. I really appericiate the times that you were there to listen to me rant and to hug me and comfort me when I am sad and really depressed. For all of that, I really thank you. If you were not there, I think I wouldn’t have been able to have so much fun.
And because you were there, you were the one for me to lean on and look for when I am down. I really thank you for that. Just because you were there, you made all my time there felt worthwhile. *hugs* Thanks! <33

Gumok
Thanks for all the advice that you have given and that you had provided for us all. I need to thank you too, for the help that you have given and the listening ear you have provided XD And we seem to think alike on who Shiro and the others like, and XP I managed to guess who you liked LOL. You provided a lot of fun and laughter for the rest of us, and you were always the big brother there for us to solve our problems, so thanks! And I won’t tease or embrass the girl that you like XDD *runs*
And yes,

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Jason
ERM…UH…HMM…EH…
LOL, you are a great friend, and you might have your own quirks and weird ways at times but you are still a great person. I know that a lot of things are going through your mind and that you are really confused and don’t know what to do, but you know what? Heck them, cuz you are who you are and you are what makes you YOU. SO don’t let those people pull you down! XD

Cheese
OMFG, seriously, you are too sweet! I cant believe that you would really run all the way from the chalet and back just to get my dollfies. For that, I really thank you. And thank you even more for all the times that you listened to my whims and made everything happen. You rock dude, you really do!

So that is is MY short summary and since I am doing this in school I am in rush of time too XDD

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*Blush*

This was what I managed to get out of myself straight after the chalet and you know what, I feel much more better now that I have let it all out. Let a huge burden off my back that is for sure. XD


For the past three days, it has been kind of a repeated journey between heaven and hell for me. For one moment, I can be as happy as a lark and the very next moment, I feel like I am going through the hells of fire. Every thing was going crazy with all the different politics and issues, that I was so tired. But I can’t keep it in anymore than necessary. So here are all my rants for the past three days.

Relationship

I knew that he was going to be there. I knew he was. And I still went. That was cuz Kuroii was back in Singapore, I really wanted to see her, I haven’t seen Jason and Gumok for a long time, and I really wanted to catch up with them. Plus there was so much going that I just wanted to let down my hair and have fun.

But NOBODY told me that he was going to be there with his NEW GIRLFRIEND. NOBODY. When I reached Pasir Ris, I saw Kuroii, and I was so happy, I hugged her and proceeded to catch up with her about the times that we shared.

Then Jason and Cheese(a new guy who is such a big sweetie XD) came to fetch us and then Jason told me about it. So one moment, I was happily reminiscing about our lives, and the next, I plunged down to hell when I knew he had gotten over me so fast and got himself a new girlfriend. A new girlfriend is okay, I mean, come on, he is a guy, I do not expect him to be thinking about me all the time still. But a new girlfriend who is also IN KURABU?! WTFH?!

To those who didn’t know why we broke up, it’s simple. I couldn’t take the way he was treating me anymore. He wouldn’t call, he wouldn’t sms, he wouldn’t MSN, it was like losing all contact with him. Then whenever he did SMS, it would be about to rant to be about his Dad/brother/sister on how badly they are treating him. I do not mean that you can’t rant to me, but disappearing and then appearing again to just rant to me? I am sorry, I can’t take it. I also can’t take it when he does not seem to care about my life. He just rants to me, but never let me rants back to him.

My friends will ask me, how are you and your boyfriend? I would reply “Fine…I guess?” and laugh it off. Some closer ones know that it was going badly and my best buds like YeeWai, Hayate, Farq, Theo and Daryl Nii Chan knew exactly what was going on. It was too painful. Those who knew would ask me to reconsider and think over everything. Should I let myself stay this way? Be used to no end with nowhere out of it? Uncertainty was written by me exactly for this reason. It was what I was feeling and going through.

But what is the use of saying all this now? It is all in the past and it is where it is going to stay. Nothing I say or do now is going to make a difference.
But it does not mean that I can’t feel the way I am feeling.

What sparked me off crying was so stupid yet simple at the same time. He went onto the chalet’s porch and sat down, then started emo-ing by himself. I knew something was wrong, but hey, I wasn’t his girlfriend, so who was I to say anything?

He then went in and announced that he had lost his PSP. Once her said that, I shouted to gumok, ”Check his pockets and his bag, it’s definitely in there!” That was when I couldn’t take it. How could I know so much about a person but the person can know NOTHING about me? If you ask him anything about me now, he would probably shrugs his shoulders and say he don’t know.

I ran off crying and then Kuroii went along to comfort me. I couldn’t take it. I was so sad and depressed. How could it have happened this way? It hurts so much, just hurts so much! I couldn’t take it and just broke down in front of Kuroii. Sorry Kuroii! ><

I guess I can’t say anymore. I don’t think I have anymore to say anyway. I guess all I need to do now, is just to remember, he is not mine anymore…

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Cosplay Arts Festival

Simply put, ONE WHOLE MESS OF FUN~ XDD But I need to rush for Lecture now, so later update~

Just a note, ASH CRIMSON IS LIKE SHOOOOOO HAWTTTTTTTTT!!!!

And L is cute too XDD

So For Now, Jya~

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